wo lamha bhi kya lamha thalakhon ki bheed thi
par main akela tanha tha

kisi ka saath chaaha tha maine
jo mil ke bhi na mila
us khamoshi mein bhi shor tha
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

ke jeet ke bhi haar gaya main
shikwa karne ko bhi koi na tha
tu mere saath hoke bhi kahan tha
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

kabhi kadam behka bhi mera
tujhse door bhi main gaya
sard sa kar diya us toofan ne
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

behka tha mann kabhi
ek baar nahin kayi baar tha main bewafaa
sannata mujhko chubhta tha
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

rooh meri kaanp gayi us raat
khuda ne mujhe ek anjaam ki jhalak dikhayi
jeeta tha na marta tha main
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

kya sahi kya galat ye pata nahin
aaj bhi bemaani khayal guzarte hain
wo lamha lekin surkh rooh hai
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

zauq shaayad kabhi aazad na hoga
sukoon to kabhi nahin mila kisi ko
dozakh ka munh dekha tha maine
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

khuda reham kar is bande par
tu hee maalik tu hee raah dikhaane waala
tere sadke jeena chaahata hoon
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

shaitan sekoi vaasta na ho kabhi
peer ban ke main jee loon thoda
har shirkat mein teri shifaa rahe
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

tera paigham aaya tha shaayad
toone mujhe jagaaya tha
ab andhere na chhayen kabhi
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

ek sard sirhan si guzar jaati hai
jab yaad us lamhe ki aati hai
mar mar ke jiya tha main
wo lamha bhi kya lamha tha

----zauq

a poem of guilt and awakening
a prayer of hope that one stays away from temptation to do wrong
a realisation that has thankfully stayed
----and should stay forever....